6/27/26

today i woke up suprisingly early for going to bed at 2:30, around ~13:00 i got jasper to pick me up, which was really nice. we didnt do much but im glad i got to bond with him, i really think hes cool and i wanna get closer with him. i almost got high for the first time with him, which was cool, i had to decline so i wouldnt get caught by my dad from the spell/me being high. me and jasper played knucklebones while watching My Suicide, which is one of my favorite movies :D i kinda wanted to hug and cuddle but hes taken and in dont wanna make things weirdddd even though he deflintley wouldnt care. i like jaspers car, it has a cd drive too, which is really cool. he played me some music and he was singing, which was oddly comforting for a heavy punk song. gods, this feels weird but also nice to journal, if only i had someone i trusted to show these entries. when i got home i got to go do some skating, even though my blister is still healing. i fucking loooovveeee relapse by cheap perfume!!!! i dont want to overplay it but its so good for skating, it got my to try some more steep driveways, which i almsot crashed and got speed wobbles, but it was so worth it. i miss morgan a lot, playing relapse didnt help much. i really hope hes okay. i also drank wayyy too much monster, i mixed some with a white claw, which still tastes ass, though that might be the because its fruit punch monster with cherry whiteclaw. not much else happened, other then more jasper stuff, which i forgot to mention. we also went blackberry, raspberry, strawberry, and green bean picking in their backyard garden, which was rlly fun, and the strawberrys were so goooood :3 my dad said monday were finally getting the rest of my pc stuff!! took agessssssss lmao. WILD turn but i really fucking miss raine, i really hope i didnt do anything, and i really hope theyre safe :< ig minecraft runs on this shitty laptop too, so thats nice i suppose. thats, all for now, ill see you tommorow, goodnight

06/28/26

its almost 5, but so much has happened, my dad cane home drunka nd that was weird, but mmorgan woke up!!! and we called and oohmygod i have feeligns for him i cant deny it anymore i love hhim so much just his voice has me melted, i spent the entire night on call with him and i jsut cant stop admiring him, he had his camera on and ffuck i awawaaawawa oohmygod and he ssent photos of himundressed and injsut fucking cant ohmygod it made me sso horny and he immedietly knew and teased me so ahrd i ohmyfuckinggodddd @////@ im so privating my journal now, holy fuck but i needed to talk about this, im.so downbad for him i jsit need him so nad and he wants me too im sndjehejekrkr @///////@

its almost midnight, today was weird, ozzie was around and i got to teach him some more stuff with skating. it was alright, meow, meow, meow, i also listened to more TWRP, and it was peak unsuprisingly, i also almost got hit by a car by some dumbass maniac omg bruh, im talkign to jasper a bit about giving him the walkman i dont use so thats nice, and were establishing boundaries!! he said physical touch is fine with him which is peak :D ill add more if i remember more, goodnight